“Don’t lose yourself in the temporary; no one has ever seen what GOD has prepared for YOU.”
These last few weeks of summer have been a blur for me. It seems like we have been watching children go back to school for a month now through social media and the season is slowly changing from sun-filled summer afternoons to rigorous work and school routines. As fall seems to fill our every corner, I have been finding myself consumed with the severity of the world. I had put all my time and energy into making sure I am making the correct educational decisions for my child. Then making lists and plan after plan, to execute the school year well. I set my goals so high that I was losing GOD and myself in them and all my self-worth was coming from accomplishing items on a list. I was being consumed by the world and did not even known because society tells us this, is what I am supposed to be consumed with. As I sat in the park this week with a fellow homeschool mom, Jesus turned the light on in my head showing me, through a simple conversation, that my self-worth was tied up in all the wrong places. Looking at this playground with children jumping and laughing, I realized to have true self-worth it must be connected to Jesus and HIS purpose. It felt like a lightening striking the ground telling me, “none of this is important- only GOD is!” I was attributing the fact that if I was a good mom and educated my son well, that somehow, that made me a good and “worthy” person. My identity was being preoccupied with what the world says is “good” and not what GOD explains is important.
The other day, I was driving home from Charleston while talking on the phone to my mom, and completely missed my exit to the i-95. When I realized it, I had to stop my call and turn on my GPS and follow it back to Sumter. I was way off track and had to go through a ton of what appeared to be rural farmland by Saint Matthews. I was scared to continue my call thinking I might veer off the path again, so I simply followed it step by step for 56 miles till I knew where I was. The last few weeks of my life have been like this road trip and I’m sure you have been in a similar situation at one point or another. I was driving down the road having a good ol’ time, talking on the phone, thinking I’m going the right way and then the scenery does not look right and you know you are off the path. I believe that’s the time where God whispers in our ear, “hey look around…this isn’t right,” and we immediately look up in panic. That’s when we must stop looking at the world as right and get back to what is really important. (or get off the phone and turn on your GPS- in my case.) The world will always seem alright till we look up and realize that we have lost a part of ourselves while being consumed with our children, our work, or even our money. Our self-worth does not lie in the fact that our children are the smartest, or we are the most successful at our job or we made the most money in this life. Our worth lies in being children of The King and doing GOD’s purpose on this earth.
After getting home from the park the other day, I did a simple google search on self-worth bible verses. I know that sounds cheesy, but I had to get back on the path and I needed start somewhere. I used Google as my make-shift GPS and just started to follow where it was leading. After scrolling through a few verses Romans 12:3 stuck out to me and my curiosity for more in-depth answers made me open by Bible App right then to read more. The verse says, “For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgement, in accordance with the faith GOD has distributed to each of you.” It goes to explain that we all given different gifts and different functions to form one body of Christ. Our worth in this life has to do with the purpose (or gifts) GOD has given us to share, not with what the world says we should be doing at any one season. In Romans, Paul goes on to say “if your gift is encouraging then encourage, if it’s to serving then serve.” He spells it out so simple and yet, we make it so complicated for ourselves and others. He also explains that love must be sincere and we need to be devoted to one another. (Romans 12:9) “Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction and faithful in prayer.” (Romans 12:12) We as a community, of followers of Jesus, MUST understand that our worth relates to our faith in the Creator of the Universe. Nothing in this world matters apart from our faith in the LORD and our relationship with HIM. It was humbling to think as I watched those children play that the self-esteem I was getting from trying to be an exceptional parent means nothing if I am not finding my self-worth in the Jesus and HIS purpose for me on this earth. It’s easy to lose ourselves in the temporary luxury of this world, but we MUST keep GOD’s purpose and our faith in HIM, at the for front of our thinking to achieve our true goal in this life; to spend eternity in the place GOD has prepared for us.