This morning’s service was met with a shadow of grief, as it was announced that our church lost one of its family members at only 18 years of age. Most people believe that Christian people never grieve and are overly happy when death occurs, but the sorrow of an unexpected loss pulls grief out of even the strongest believer. As I sat, in the midst, of prayers and emotions all I could help but think is, “what would Jesus tell us right now?” then the answer came like a lightning bolt as Pastor Lee spoke. Jesus would never tell us not to be sad, angry or in fear. Jesus, who had the power to change any circumstances, stood in a room and wept for his friend Lazarus. (John 11:33-35) He left himself vulnerable in the moment, felt sadness and wept. We must never be ashamed to feel sadness because through your heartache Jesus’ light shines with true brightness. We always think of Jesus as a docile guy, who loved everyone, but he experienced and showed anger too. I could not image Jesus flipping tables in front the temple, but it is written that he showed this much anger in the name of HIS Father. (Matthew 21:12)
It was through HIS anger that we see how fierce HIS love is for Our Father. He shows each one of us that anger is okay to feel, but our hearts still need to abide to Our Father through it. Often in grief, we experience fear on multiple levels. We are hit in the face with our morality as well as concern for the one we have lost. Jesus showed fear in the last moments before HIS death as HE prayed to GOD before his crucifixion, asking him if there “was any other way.” He sat in true fear and sweat blood as he thought about the horrific death that HE must endure. Then, he went through it anyway. (Luke 22: 42-44) If Jesus showed fear, then we should not hide our fears. In our fears of the unknown we should do as Jesus and spend time with our Father and abide in HIS wisdom. As we went on to sing and worship GOD, I could not help, but feel a peace come over the room as we sang the words “Oh, how he loves us.” It is in times of loss that our comfort falls in HIS love for us and the fact that eternity is waiting for us and we will follow one day. In all the unknowns of grief, it is key to understand that all things are in GOD and we serve according to the WILL of GOD. As we go on to mourn the loss of our young family member, I pray that our grief transforms us and renews our minds into a deeper understanding of Our Father. (Romans 12:2)
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